Mysterious place somewhere on the hill
Bench in the park, in the midst of many
Memories no one can erase or kill
Her only refuge – running to the safety!
Now all these have vanished into emptiness
Everything beautiful has died in a moment
Not sure which path leads out of the darkness
Leaving this mess behind, running far away?
Walk around those ancient streets
Is it home or just a pile of bricks?
Love and hate – a collection of myths
Betrayed by faith that gave her wings
If home is where her heart is
Then she has a long way home
Will she ever find it?
Next to his trophies or carved on the stone
There’s nothing that will make her stay
Give her shivers, let her breathe
Only a hopeful wish for the day
When she finds home and her tears disappear
20th January 2014
This February hasn’t been a very colourful month. That is why I decided to take some pictures of bright things that make me happy. Hope you enjoy the last few days of this month! :)
There are things that reminds us of the times when we were kids. Whether it’s films, songs or books, it’s nice to have a ticket back to those days. For me it is Matilda written by a British author of children’s fiction Roald Dahl. At first I saw the movie on one evening at my uncle’s place. As usually, it all started with the film for me. But then I got the book as a present and I have to admit that this was the only book I’ve ever read more than once. The secret is out now!
So what is the story behind the book? It is about a little girl Matilda that is very smart for her age but her self-centered parents and brother fail to see it. Because she doesn’t feel accepted, she finds an outlet in reading books. At school her teacher sees Matilda’s intelligence and the two of them become friends. Life is tough for Matilda since she’s also bullied at school by the principal. Because of her life circumstances, she discovers a power inside of her that allows her to move the objects from the distance and helps her to fight against her struggles.
This book so beautiful and extraordinary. It is about not fitting in and feeling lonely because of being different and turning all of that into something good. Every child wants to believe in the miracles and a happy end on the very last page of every book and Matilda gets hers after all.
What things keeps you going back to your childhood?
Yesterday I went to the OneRepublic’s concert and the experience was truly amazing. It was actually my first real concert that I’ve ever been to so I didn’t really know what to expect. But now I can officially say that there’s no better feeling than to see your favorite musicians singing their hearts out and be in the crowd that is singing words of those songs back. Especially when they sang Secrets and Something I need, I almost wanted to cry just because these songs mean a lot to me and I felt like I was a part of them. Now I only hope that I will get a chance to see them live again.
Here’s the list of songs they played in case you’re wondering.
Light It Up
All the Right Moves
What You Wanted
Stop and Stare
Something I Need
Apologize/Cry Me a River
Zach’s Guitar Solo/Counting Stars
Life in Color
If I Lose Myself
And I also took some pictures with my phone. Sorry for the bad quality.
When I woke up this morning, it was just an ordinary rainy day. After the exam period school days are already turning into a routine, leaving me without many expectations. But on my way home from school I had a bitter encounter with the past to the point when my hands began to tremble and I couldn’t focus on anything. Then as I was passing the street I spotted thousands of paper hearts in a shop window. In that second I realised that it‘s Valentines Day today. The whole situation made me feel even worse about the day. I got home and after sitting on my bed and thinking for a while, I decided to take some pictures. Sorry if it seems too sarcastic for this special day but being single or not, it doesn’t mean that much to me.
When I told my friend few weeks ago that I was going to put piano which was in my bedroom away and replace it with a chessboard table her immediate response was „You’re changing your hobbies?“
Partially, she was right. I don’t play piano anymore. I used to play for two years but then I realised that I don’t have a musical talent. I am much better with other forms of art, but not music. So that is one reason why I wanted to make more space in my room. But am I going to play chess? I’m not sure yet since there aren’t many people who come to my house and know how to play it. So I might either befriend a chess player or find some other way to use it, put my favourite books and magazines on it.
Getting rid of some old stuff and replacing it with new can also signify a turning point; the time when we need to remind ourselves to be somewhat new, more confident or determined people. And without making any changes on the outside, it would be harder to carry on inside. Sometimes it’s good to rearrange furniture, clothes or pictures on the walls to burn some bridges with the past, mend broken hearts and become a better people.
What changes are you making?
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Have you ever asked anyone whether they believe in God? Maybe you haven’t, but someone might have asked you this question. And maybe you’re not interested in God, religion or philosophy related questions at all. Although, in that case this post is for you as well.
I’ve always been interested in “deeper” questions about meaning/meaninglessness of the life and what is afterwards as you may have noticed in my previous blog posts. Christian or not, this is me. However, majority of my friends or the people I spent most of my time with were narrow-minded Christians regularly attending church. Lately, my views shifted and rather than standing up and fighting for the one absolute truth and I became unbiased about the different beliefs that people around me have.
As a way of getting to know new people at a secular university I asked a few times this question. Do you believe in God? And because when we were once discussing the topic of “Religion & Philosophy” in class the great majority of my classmates were unwilling to talk about it, I was sure they were atheists. I didn’t do a poll that day but I got to talk to some of them. And to be honest, these are the people that say “If I pass the exam, I’ll start going to the church or go to the confession.” and a few seconds after they laugh about it because they would never do it. So when I actually asked one of my classmates she said that she most likely believes in God, but she didn’t like nor cared about this topic either.
What I couldn’t get out of my head for a while is simply what the statement “I believe in God” mean to people. They don’t care about church or Bible but they tell you that they believe in the existence of God. Is it because they live out of the tradition of the previous generations and they’re not eager to discover the truth themselves? Or does it feel safer to live with an idea of some God? What I am saying is that there are people who couldn’t care less about religion and yet they don’t call themselves atheists, agnostic or whatever else, but Christians. I don’t think this is a matter of deism, but rather a lack of interest or desire to pursue the truth (no matter what “the truth” means to each one of us).
I’m not going to share my own beliefs since I’m not writing this to make someone believe that some of these theories (or any other really) is right or wrong. I also don’t want to offend you, if you’ve never thought about it for a single moment. I really try to accept people’s opinions even if we disagree and even start an open discussion. That’s why I like to ask this question. And maybe for once it will make you think about the reason behind this life or world.
So do you believe in God?